Bum Bum.

Think I outdid myself in lameness again.

Friend: Don't you need to prepare for your lessons tomorrow?

Me: Nah, not now, I prefer my lessons to be fresh...

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Think she outdid herself in blurdom again.
Half of the school thought that today's my last day.
I wish it was! Then I won't need to set papers before I go. Even if it meant they don't welcome me here, thanks to an intepretation of a cynical friend. -.-
Sigh, shucks, not meant to be leh. :[ Still have to set papers... and now I am procrastinating...
But yah, what a start...

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A pupil gave me a mother of pearl pendant. Sis showed me the seahorse pendant she got me from Thailand, made from some bone or something. (Nah, it didn't manage to come to Vietnam afterall.) Old friend gave me an antelope bone or antler pendant some 3 years back. God, that's 3 years already?!

Heh there is something really laidback and tribal and beach bum to the pendants I get. I like. Maybe that the reason why. Heheheee...

"Not all those who wander are lost"

Guess I am not as 'in the wind' as I wished to portray myself to be. I am feeling more settled now that I have worked out a more or less workable itinerary for my coming trip to central and north Vietnam. Heh, and nope, am not the explorer, but rather a pick and choose open tourist. :D It is a pity that I can't fit in all the places I want to go conveniently, but wells, I guess Vietnam will always be there. Heeheeheeee, excited... Hue, Hanoi, Sapa, Halong Bay here I come, soon. Lalaa... Then off to Perhentians! Heehee... then? The bug has bitten my brains for now hard, really hard.

So dear body, please please please please, stay fit! Got to load up on my anti-oxidants and nutrients and sleep well and exercise loads etc. >:]

My dear wallet's going on a crash diet too. Heeeh.

Hailstones had been reported in Singapore. Severe thunderstorms resulted to a really wet March back in the little red dot while the sunny windy weather in South Vietnam makes me miss the easy access I had to a sailboat.

Anyway, mum had to keep ah lai in the storeroom during thunderstorms as he's terrified of the rumbling and booming. He seemed to like it there and actually went deeper and hid under the shelves from the online reports back from home, though there was once that he was really stored and forgotten for some time, till a kid came and ask where ah lai was...

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One man's meat is one man's poison. I guess that is the way how the world works.

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Began to sort out my travelling plans. Happy... But the planning is really painful. Hehe... too used to conveniences.

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Less than a month more... I will miss my qingqing and my money. T_T

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But then it will be, here I come, wakie, diving and all!!! And other urban activities that I take for granted in the past. Lala...

I should not be a parent and shall not. That is my contribution to less social problems.

It takes 8 months for me to finally come into terms in mind, body and soul that chronic, prolonged exposure to children will really drive me nuts. Not all people are qualified to be parents, I am one of them. Well, haha might as well. Heheee u know what I mean...

Teenagers could be worse off actually though somehow I could tolerate them for at least 4 years. Maybe a heavy financial conseqence if I quit during that period of time kept me in line to a certain extent.

So why am I in teaching? Pragmatic reasons rule. So Singaporean eh?

So now, a month more, and there is an urgent serious need to look at my priorities and capabilities. Still stay within the comfort zone and teach and complain about it periodically, or time to try something else, even if it pays way less and then complain about it too?

Then there is the pragmatic question of who in the right frame of mine will want to hire me for other stuffs apart from teaching... do I want to do something else apart from teaching? Admin work? Planning and development? Business? I can't possibly be an engineer or a doctor or take up specialised jobs now without having to spend a fortune... Plow through the choices and opportunity cost, the answer is there, getting less fuzzy but still not that sactisfactory as this ain't utopia.

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I still never learn. My liver is still human. -.-

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Am such a proverbial frog in the popculture well. Was feeling let down to know that the lone ranger had a sidekick. Wow, just how lonely can that be?

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Yippee, trips to look forward too... again, time flies.

Silly rhyme; Silly situations

silly rhyme
waste of time
find a dime
buy a lime
clean off slime
write a mime
silly rhyme
waste of time

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Homo sapiens or Homo stupidity?

All the elections in 2008 in various countries; Thailand, Malaysia, Taiwan, USA to name a few...
It's show-time!!!! RaRa!!! Some good come out of some elections, some churn out overly confident turned sore losers... more stories await to unfold. While people shop for their political voices, major decisions and important decisions have to wait...

Iraq and US; 5 years on...
The war must go on; and so he says... for what? It's a darn bloody mistake, a childhood macho dream that became a nightmare for thousands; a bottomless pit. A quagmire, a catch 22... How now brown cow?


China and Tibet... decades on...
Freedom and independence, and so they want. Hate and violence targeted at the weak and innocent, the guilty by association, on both sides as usual.

Humans never grow up, stakes just got higher but the fundamental principles remain the same. In the more innocent days it's like this:

"Cher! He took my ruler!"

"Cher! He took my pencil first!"

"But Cher! He pinched me before that!"

"Cher! He said that I was stupid!"

Then it becomes this...

"We want independence!"

"No way you are getting it because we want your resources."

"You are creating trouble so we need to clamp down."

"You oppress our people so we will fight back and attack your people too..."

"Let's (not friend China) boycott Olympics 2008."

"Hmm, but that should not be in the picture anyway as it is a perfect place for people to make friends (and to show off actually)..."




Sports and politics should not mix, yet they are each other's forbidden fruit. The more they shouldn't be together the more they yearn and draw to each other. Well, fighting it out through sports and well better than fighting it out through war I guess.

Things are all so multi-faceted and complex and yet they are also fundamentally so simple. We know what has to be done, we just refuse to do it. Sounds familiar? For it is so pervasive throughout the entire homo species that sapiens should actually be stupidity.

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Haiz... the cynical me rears its head again. -.-

Need a haircut.

I want to do KTV.

Wakie; dive; sail? Hmmm...

Shrugs.

Count down continues! :]

搞不懂

我在越南也有一段日子，听了也体验了不少新事物。有一个趋势真令我搞不懂，越南人干嘛喜欢自己人欺负自己人啊？例子比比皆是；在办公室在路上也好，在机场也罢。越南同事对待越南以及国外来的同事的态度之差别是白得能横跨语言障碍。有些归回的越南朋友有时还得假装不懂越南文， 不是越南人而省了一些无需的麻烦。这趋势真是让人看不顺眼，也觉得惋惜。

我知道这不关我的事，但看到一个拥有无限潜质的地方的人民如此崇洋而鄙视自己人， 欺压自己人，我不禁感到一股愤怒。我可能太心急了吧，所谓十年树木百年树人，改变需要时间。况且这是越南人民与政府所要伤脑筋解决的问题，我这闲杂人也只能在此观变，发牢骚，同时也庆幸自己不需受到这种自找的宗族歧视。

Over here in Vietnam, you find stir-fried crap in the menu, together with a cafe selling boxed fish and wasabi that contains no antiseptic in it. -.-

MoodySunray needs some Sun. :o

Open up that window... Let a little sunshine in.

Heeheeeheeeheeeeee...

http://coolcosmos.ipac.caltech.edu/

for some reasons friends seem to be become people who come to you solely for favours and forget your existence in other times; or this is the vibe i am getting from some of my friends out there. not all. fortunately. you know how irritating it is when you receive wedding invites from long lost friends via sms and you wonder why the heck they bothered as you have already removed their number from your addressbook.

What doesn't kill...

This is probably the worst bout of flu I have ever had, and hopefully this will be the worst flu I will ever have.

3 consecutive nights of chills and high fevers and nausea and vomiting, 3 days of extreme fatigue and aches. Got to thank my colleagues for covering and offering to cover for my lessons. I suspected that I might have malaria or dengue and went to the hospital, spent a neat fortune to be told the good news that it was neither.

But the fevers and chills still wouldn't go away. Last night was really hell. First the chills and uncontrolled shaking. I was so pissed and fed up with myself. The chills stopped when I yelled to myself, 'look! shaking isn't going to help!'. Odd, but it did. Then waves of nausea, whatever ounce of fluids I took in the body threw it out, together with the medications. If one could one will fuckingly whack up the body system and tell some reason to it, look, you are DEHYDRATED, stop throwing everything up.

No intake of fluids equals to no nausea, so let's not take fluids, right? The body won in that... until I began to hear more voices than I wanted to in my head. Hmmm, this is definitely NOT right. A check with the thermometer confirmed my fears, the fevers had reached 40.1 degrees.
Time for a cold shower, even if it meant the chills might recur, better than frying my brains literally. Survival instincts really kicked in and I was amazed I actually realised the situation I was in and did what I had to do. Speed was slower than usual and the room's a mess. Well, then again, it had been even before. Though my thought processes were actually clearer on what needs to be done. Rationality and hallucination could be a good mix to get one to do what had to be done to be well again.

That was probably hell on earth. Being sick. When all the pains and nausea and shakes seemed to have a mind of their own. Was actually crying at a point of time, then it didn't help. So think think... the mind was a odd thing, I wondered if it might be spiritual and made amends.

Oddly, things turned for the better; and it wasn't even spiritual in the traditional sense, just putting down little grudges and letting some feelings go, the body calmed down a little and stopped throwing up, so the medications and vitamin drinks could do their jobs, and I could sleep...

Shuddered. It was an interesting episode, not one that I want to go through ever again though. Occasionally life would throw little tests like these. It's just flu, yeah I know. Darn bad flu. More rest, then time to build up the body again, and I think I learnt a lesson or two as well. Odd.

Irrational me.

I was probably oversensitive. But it didn't feel good when friends were overly considerate and had some other plans without prompt communication. For a point of time my over enthusiasium to contact and ask for plans to meet made me feel like a pimp. Maybe in a group dynamics decision-making would very much be hampered. Maybe they were tired, maybe they didn't want to impose and take advantage blah blah blah. Good and bad.

Oh wells.